Just watched “Stepmom” and I looked to see her latest work———————-> Catching Fire is rumored. Bahahahhaha 

As I sit here gazing into the setting sunlight, all I can do is think about how fluid the weekend had gone on by. I was looking forward to the weekend and all of the fun that it would have for me. 

Indeed it was blissful. Courageous and adventuresome are two really good words to describe what took place. 

A friend gift exchange took place. A lover’s gift exchange happened afterwards. 

Shopping was the following day. 

Discovery of a lost ID was the challenge. I prayed and let the Saints handle the missing object.

The last day, I found the ID. We celebrated. We departed for another time to meet.

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Long Distance Relationships are probably the most treacherous journey of love people can endure. It makes you feel like all new when you meet each time. The space of time transforms into a monster of itself. Illusions are things you need to fight through. Waving a wand of hope in the darkness is something I learned. My spirituality has been strengthened 10 fold in the past year. Love has taught me patience, new ways of looking at something, and commitment through struggles. 

I know I complain and rational thoughts hold me back. Practical thinking makes the relationship look abusive. But the only way to test your strength and understanding is to jump out at sea. I jumped and I am still swimming. This is something that people fear. So falling in love with someone close to home or in the same city forces them to cope/settle with their fear of finding the perfect soul among a giant landscape. 

Patrick is sometimes absent-minded and oblivious to details, but he looks at the big picture all the time. This is why I enjoy being with him. I can’t express this vocally because I transform instantly when I feel other energies of the space to whom I am conversing with. So the depth of my original song is loss and contorted. So writing in words is my forte of expression. 

You love me. Real or not real?

Real.

I read the hunger games once and soaked up Katniss and her journey fully. I connected so well with the character because I understood that reality could change all the time. So just reminding myself that my love is real for Patrick and so deeply engrained to making things work no matter what is what makes me stubborn. I am an Aries. He is a Leo. We may be DIVAS to the outside world, but we just understand how aligned we are with the world. We conquer time with flames of passion and we push and shove to get the job done. 

We know what we want. We want each other. No goblinspeak here. This is what I want.

Real.